A Broken Anniversary

 

THE BREAKDOWN ANNIVERSARY

 How fearful is dreaming the good time,

When everything was perfect, everything was fine;

I was happy,

And nothing seemed wrong,

Who knew I would end up listening to sad song,

Like the ones I never listened to,

Like the ones I always ignored,

Who knew they would be the part of my journey one day,

On to the roads and on the shore,

People tell time changes everything,

But the pain remains the same,

I can't believe we were closer once,

And suddenly, we became so strange,

I still count the days,

From when we left each other,

I guess it was necessary for our own better,

That's the lie I tell myself every time I miss
us,

I still cry for the journey that we have imagined once,

It never happened, 

I don't even know my hope for it,

Nowadays, I am just learning to be with,

The sadness and the Grieve,

These lines, I believe, are only for myself and me,

As my soul has already hanged himself on the tree,

Without you the night wanders as it lost its stars,

Come and u will find me in the same place,

With all your given scars,

I wish I had never fallen for you,

I wish I never knew you,

Cause every time it happens,

I consider you only my true !

COUNTING MISTAKES THE SLAM

 

Counting Mistakes

 Once I got a post,
From my future self,
Counting all my goods and faults,
And while counting them I got numb,
I was thinking about all the mistakes,
That I had done and I was about to do,
I guess no one knew if my feelings were ever true,
I remember myself once loving a girl,
More than myself,
I believe it was the wrong time,
And at last, I lost her,
Don't know why
Even though it's been a long time I still miss her,
I thought this feeling will also go,
Like the passing seasons,
But I ignored the fact of the homecoming of it,
Every year makes it more deeper,
I wanted to be a pilot once,
I never told this to anyone,
But only myself,
I remember myself falling out of a tree,
While wanting me to fly and get free,
It's been a long time,
Since my eyes shredded tears,
Even though I still count all my fears,
I once also tried to swim,
Just to sink and die,
I guess it was in the grieve of not being able to fly,
And today I hate myself able to remember these all,
Where I never rise but only fall,
All those pain my future self just flashed on me,
And at the end, it was just a lesson to control my fury,
Because hating sometimes is easier,
Than to be in tears,
I believe I too will be able to do cheers,
Once I forget all those my years !!

FAREWELL

khayal saal bhar k aaj kagaz m utar rahi hu,

na jaane q khaam-a-kha hi aasu beh rahe h,

jo in yaado ko peero rahi hu,

ehesaas yaha ka kuch alag sa hain,

shayad isi waje se apni baat,

is panne k zariye keh rahi hu,

 

chahe woh hostel se college tak ka safar ho,

ya ho ek hi tiffin  m dhero saare haath,

aaj un dino ko soch mann hi mann muskura rahi hu,

jab peheli baar aayi thi toh socha tha,

ki kuch seekh kr jaaungi,

par kise pata tha yaha sikhane wala koi inssan nhi,

par khud zindagi hogi,

raato ko jaag kr exams ki tayari se,

roommate k biscuit packet se thodi si chori,

 kise pata tha yaha bitaye har pal itni keemti hogi

aaj un yaado ko phir se haqeekat banta dekhne ki aarzoo ho rahi h,

Nadaan thi jb aayi thi,

Haan shayad ab bhi nadaan hi hu,

Magar yaha k kisse kahanio ne,

Samjhne ki takat zaroor di h,

Waqt k saath saath kuch kr Saku,

Ye hosla bhi zindagi ne khud kamai h,

Ab kya hi kahu is jaghe k baare m,

Jis jagha ne mujhey khud se milaya h,

Rote hue mujhey na jaane mere dosto ne,

Kitne baar hasaya h,

Chahe woh ho hostel k mere yaar,

Ya ho class m baat krne wale lagataar,

Inke saath shayad m kuch aur haseen pal guzaar paati,

Iske rang bhare haato se,

Kash m apne berang zindagi ko,

Thoda aur nikhaar paati,

Waise kehena toh bhaut h,

Magar lazf na jaane q tham se rahe h,

Covid k meherbaani se,

Haatho m kalam ki jagha un adhure palo ko yaad kr,

aakhe aasuein baha rahi h,

Bas aakhri alfaaz kuch itna sa h,

Shukriya yaha ka,

Aap sb meri zindagi ka ek khass hissa sa h !!

 

GOOD TIME

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Walking back to the right time,

When every thing was good,

Everything was fine,

I found you under the tree,

I told you you're mine,

I know you got scared,

You wanted someone best,

But you were the one,

Held me at my worst,

We spent the night,

Looking at the stars,

You kissed me just before the sunrise,

I was there and you walked out,

I miss you everyday, 

I know it was all my fault,

I hope you to come back,

I know you won't,

And we both lost the right time.

-AKASH HALDER ( deartales)

- INSTAGRAM ID- @deartales_

SHE FELT LIKE AN ANGEL !

 

 

Have you ever fallen for someone whom you never met? Well sounds strange no? But believe me it can happen and in my case it happened to me.

     Hi, myself Akash Halder,  a native islander from the Andaman and Nicobar Islands, I have born and grew up here only and have spent around 25 years of my life in these islands.  Professionally I am a clinical psychologist and have done a PhD in the same( when it's professional I use to refer myself as Dr. Akash Halder),  I work in the local government hospital and help those who are going through any mental trauma.  And sometimes I also stand on a stage, try to motivate the public through my words.

         Well now from my introduction, let's go to my so called love story.

        It was the regular month of January, when cold winds use to make their paths through  our homes and we use to celebrate  New Year, well I use to celebrate some of my friends' birthdays too.  However on that regular month of January, there was something irregular waiting for me, which was going to change my life forever and from which I was completely unaware.  I still remember that date, 25th January 2019, just a day before from the Republic Day, well that day also felt regular, in the morning the birds were chirping like always, and  I was also in the hospital checking one of mine patient's file, until I, along with the other medical staffs and people present there heard a scream.  Well in hospitals hearing a scream is just as common as drinking a glass of water in the breaks.  But this time, this scream sounded different, it was so loud and  painful that it seemed like someone is dying just next to the wall of mine.  So, we all rushed out from our chambers and started looking for the person who screamed like that and we found that it was a woman of the age of around 28 years, she was a delivery patient in our hospital  and after some more investigation we got to know that the lady had just met with a miscarriage and by not able to bear that inner pain she screamed like that, however it is pretty much normal for a mother to scream for the loss of her new born child, but we can hardly understand from which pain they go through that time.  And in Namreeta's case( the woman's name was Namreeta), she screamed so painfully that I have never heard like before.  I was a psychologist so it was my duty to console her on that time, so I started walking towards her, but before I reach to her, a girl of around the age of 23( that's how she looked like) reached to her, held her hands and started consoling her, the medical staffs failed to recognize her from the family or friend, but because of the situation we all stayed calm.  After a while Namreeta got unconscious and fell on the bed, her husband was also in the room, he was crying and that mysterious girls was trying to calm him too.  Her words were so pure and inspiring that within a minute Namreeta's husband stopped crying.  And after getting the situation in control we all left the ward one by one, however I was the last one to leave the place(don't know why).

        After leaving the ward and completing my shift, I came to home and don't know why and how, I was kept thinking about that incident only and specially more about that mysterious girl.  While consoling to Namreeta and her husband her(the mysterious girl's) words hit me so loud that the hard corner of my heart which I knowingly once closed from any kind of love( because of some incidents happened in the past), melted down, her speech inspires me to fall in love again.  I never believed in love at first sight, but as I already said, that day was irregular, I fell for her.  And as much as I think about her she seemed to be an angel for me.  However, after that day I never saw her again.

        Now it's been 2 long years, since the vision of that mysterious girl helping that couple passed.  I tried to find her many times, by many ways but every time I failed. And now, somewhere in my heart I believe that she was an angel in real wh0 just didn't helped that couple but also made me to believe in love once again.  So, I started dating and in the past 2 years I dated 5 girls, but unfortunately didn't found that connection yet, maybe it will take some time.

        And if I say truly, YESS I am still waiting for the day when I will come across to that mysterious girl once again. 

 

 

-AKASH HALDER ( Way Back Memories)

- INSTAGRAM ID- @_akash06_

[ THIS STORY IS A COMPLETE WORK OF FICTION, WHICH IS ANYHOW NOT CONNECTED WITH ANY PERSON OR PLACE]

INTRODUCTION TO THIS PAGE !

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 Hello guys, myself Akash Halder ( pen name - deartales), I am from a beautiful island (also sometimes referred as the PARADISE), Andaman and Nicobar Islands, which is in India.  Currently I am a teenager who loves to pen down his thoughts and imaginations and this page is all about those thoughts and imaginations only.

            So, grab your seats and get ready for an awesome trip though the lands of imaginations ❣

- Akash Halder ( WayBackMemories)

- Instagram ID - @_akash06_